Day 37

I went to see the doctor today.  It was the pre-chemo check-up.  Making sure that I was well enough to continue treatment starting Monday.  My white blood cell count is healthy and normal and my blood work looks good.  So onward to round 3 we go.  Picked up a small skin infection so I am on antibiotics for that.  The doc says until chemo is over and they do another ct scan and chest xray, there is nothing definitive they can tell me.  But the blood work being normal is a good sign.  Overall they are quite pleased with how well I am responding and how well my body is holding up.  It's these appointments with the oncologists that really mess with your head.  My track record isn't good when it comes to news from them so your mind can't help but wonder.  It's hard not to have doubt creep in there.

1st meeting with oncologist- he told me that we won't know anything till after the ct scan
2nd meeting with oncologist- he told me that I didn't have cancer
3rd meeting with oncologist- he told me that now the cancer is back and we need to start chemo asap
4th meeting with oncologist- he told me he is adding 4th round of chemo
5th meeting with oncologist- he told me that I have 0.1% white blood cells which is very dangerous
6th meeting(yesterday) with oncologist- you have small infection but overall things are good

So you can see, so far, the good news to bad news ratio isn't great.  At the end of the day, I go in with a positive attitude and we deal with whatever news we  get.  I guess the important meeting will be the one where he declares me cancer free in a few months.  I do have to say that this experience has given me a new found respect for the medical profession.  These people are miracle workers.  Everyone from the receptionist to the nurses to all the doctors- they play such a crucial part in making sure sick people are taken care of not only medically but also emotionally as well.  Much love to my friends who are in the medical profession; Deb, Kelly, Prince, Kate, Tai, and my cousin, Kelvin.  Thank you for dedicating your lives to making people feel better.