Round 3- Done (day 50 & 51)

The other day during my church's homegroup get together, the question was asked about what kind of legacy we wanted to leave behind.  As parents, most of our answers surrounded how we wanted our kids to turn out.  Completing my 3rd round and waiting to start my 4th and final round this Monday, I started to think about legacy--for me personally.   Lance Armstrong beat cancer and then went on to win 7 straight Tour de France's.  Many cancer survivors end up running marathons and triathalons and other such things.  I think it's the whole "new lease on life" attitude.  I have no aspirations to win any bike races or any race for that matter.  I feel like many of the changes have happened already during the last few months.  But there is something to be said for me having not a "new" attitude but perhaps a "slightly tweaked" attitude on how I am going to approach life.  I have been giving it some thought.  What should be my "thing" after cancer.  My nurse at chemo today gave me the answer.  She was my first day nurse and I've been in her treatment room the most since then.  We have become friends.  Today we discussed an action plan on how we would tackle the side effects for round 4.  We analyzed what worked for round 1 and 2 and what changed in round 3 that made it tougher.   Factored in the fact that round 4 is just supposed to be tougher regardless and we hatched out a plan.  Then she said, "there is always something more we can do".  She explained that there is protocol and then there is other off treatment things that the emergency ward and the other floors can do for me if the nausea becomes unbearable or if I get an infection.  Anything to keep me comfortable in the last round.  It made me feel good-- made me think about kicking round 4 in the junk rather than having it kick my ass.

There is always something more we can do.   That is what I want to see in my life.  Often times, I know I can do more, but there is always an excuse.  This goes for work, family, relationships, friendships and pretty much all facets of my life.  I am too tired.  I got a kid.  I got a June.  I don't feel like it.  And lately-  I got cancer.   But I know I can go the extra step- whether it be praying for a friend, reading God's word, helping June around the house or just taking the extra time to teach Rhys something rather than just resorting to chucking her up in the air and tickling her.   Sometimes just being there for someone is more.  I don't know if there is any kind of trophy or prize for something like this- I am sure I can get something made up to commemorate.  Perhaps convert an old golf trophy from my father in-law.   Haha.

I know many of you have not contacted me because you want to give me space.  I appreciate it.  But if you wanna chat, let me know, email or text- I got an iphone now- I am ready anytime, anyplace, anywhere.