James 4:7-10 (The Message)
7-10So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
This was the passage of the bible in my daily devotion. In summary, this passage reminded me to submit to God. I realize that I need to rely on God even more today than round 1, 2, 3, and 4 of chemo. It was a physical thing during chemo. In the aftermath, it's now a mental thing. As I wait to do my blood tests on Thursday, my CT scan on Friday and then the results a week later- it's quite easy to fall into a state of worry or mental torment. Instead, I pray for peace. That last line about getting on your knees to end up on your feet is ironic. Tonight at bedtime, I taught Rhys to pray on her knees by her bedside for the first time. She prayed for everyone that she hung out with today-Gramma, Grampa, Uncle Dan, Momma, Dada, and Uncle Ray. Then she farted and asked me to change her diaper cuz she farted. I said no, so she threw a tantrum and then went to bed. Ah the fun never stops at the Yeung household.
Now that treatment is over doesn't mean this journey is over. A nurse told me the other day how her cousin, after years of being cancer free, is still a complete wreck a week before each scan. Will I live life in fear, from scan to scan? Will life be on hold for me just because the future is uncertain? Or will I continue to put my trust in God, who has led me through the last 3 months unscathed (except for some minor hair loss). Stay tuned for more action when return from these messages...
This was the passage of the bible in my daily devotion. In summary, this passage reminded me to submit to God. I realize that I need to rely on God even more today than round 1, 2, 3, and 4 of chemo. It was a physical thing during chemo. In the aftermath, it's now a mental thing. As I wait to do my blood tests on Thursday, my CT scan on Friday and then the results a week later- it's quite easy to fall into a state of worry or mental torment. Instead, I pray for peace. That last line about getting on your knees to end up on your feet is ironic. Tonight at bedtime, I taught Rhys to pray on her knees by her bedside for the first time. She prayed for everyone that she hung out with today-Gramma, Grampa, Uncle Dan, Momma, Dada, and Uncle Ray. Then she farted and asked me to change her diaper cuz she farted. I said no, so she threw a tantrum and then went to bed. Ah the fun never stops at the Yeung household.
Now that treatment is over doesn't mean this journey is over. A nurse told me the other day how her cousin, after years of being cancer free, is still a complete wreck a week before each scan. Will I live life in fear, from scan to scan? Will life be on hold for me just because the future is uncertain? Or will I continue to put my trust in God, who has led me through the last 3 months unscathed (except for some minor hair loss). Stay tuned for more action when return from these messages...
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